Thank You, 2013

I wrote this because I can’t sleep. God knows how I tried every single way to make myself comfortable tonight. Today is the last day of the year 2013, 3:45AM.

They say 13 is a not so lucky number. Time is fleeting. And as I flip the pages of my personal journal, I can say that this year passed by leaving an indelible mark in my life. Nope. Not all of them are unlucky. In fact, I didn't believe in luck at all. At least before this year came. If I could sum up my 2013, it was a roller-coaster ride with a two second pause at the hundred eightieth degree of the loop.

No, this is not a recap of any travel escapades I had from January to December. Yes, I still had a lot of those. But for this year, since my life stumbled upon many significant challenges, I would rather muse over the things I learned the most. I had a lot of should-have’s and could-have-been’s I never thought I will think of. Nonetheless, it was a heck of a blissful ride.

One Facebook status says it all, “Hindi Ka nagkulang, Lord.” I knew then that my life would not be the same again. I knew it was not the job I wanted to keep. I knew too that I will eventually be living the life I am destined to have. Little did I now that in the middle of chaos, there was an organized scheme where God wanted me to go.

2013 was difficult. For some reason, I didn't see it that way until now that I remember how things unfolded. I only felt the hard part on the earlier months. Later on, all I can sense was a different kind of peace, something I have never felt before. I can compare it to the dreamlike serenity I encountered in Pangubatan, Samal Island in August. And right now, as I write in this small apartment, I feel that everything is back to normal, only this time, less lethargic.

It was more than the outdoor gear business which I have longed to launched. It was more than that beach conversation with my best buddy in March. It was more than knowing my capacity to stretch out my heart to the point of discovering the formerly unknown areas. It was more than being health conscious and staying fit. It was more than a new pet. This time, every travel of the heart is noteworthy. Every single word is well-thought. Every single action is carefully decided.

True enough, hindi Ka nagkulang, Lord. In fact, you added some more that my cup is brimming with blessings. You turned my weeping into dancing and filled me with great joy. After all the things I have been through, I cannot thank You enough for keeping me safe in your arms. I cannot think of any place, any darkness here on Earth where I can turn away from that kind of love. Now, as I change my calendar, I will remember 2013 with all humility and gratefulness.